the taste of transparency

if they make all this random junk available, why not take advantage? haha.




and i can steal their bandwidth too. yay.

i actually cooked dinner for once instead of passing out fitfully on my couch with little more than small portions of pre-prepared fried food digesting in my stomach. as a result (ie. stuffing my face with 3 somewhat bland soft tacos, cuz i ran out of old el paso taco seasoning and had to use the generic brand shit that i got from can't-remember-where and i used up all my real cheddar cheese so i was left with that crap imitation kraft processed cheddar which is so smushy and insubstantial i could've just spread it right onto the tortilla oh and let's not forget that my sour cream is half-FROZEN once again because it's been sitting for a while on the tray below my dysfunctional freezer shelf - which freezes nothing actually ON it but for some reason freezes everything AROUND it) i'm satisfactorily sated and feeling lazy once again.

so i spent most of the night watching dreamgirls and taking cheesy personality quizzes. such as this one:

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

yeah yeah, for someone who's a supposed psych major and planning to be a psychiatrist i should be condemning this sort of mindless pop psychology like the sinful plague that it is. or i can just admit that it's an easy way to waste time (oh i'm soooo good at wasting time).

in other news, going slowly broke once again, have failed - yet again - to practice guitar this week (3rd week in a row! best record since winter vacation), am generally giving less than two shits about work - why not? i'm not actually teaching anything anymore for the next 2 weeks, just throwing on a movie for each period to keep the damn kids quiet - and i'm just biding my time before i head back to toronto. temporarily, anyway. man, life is really boring right now.

and you wonder why i distract myself with these mindless quizzes?

ps everybody should read jeff noon. now. (unless you're not good with trippy futuristic whacked out love stories which can knock the whole matrix catastrophe on its ass a billion times over).

curious yellow. curious, curious...

wow, i dunno what exactly bit me yesterday but i was somewhat overtaken by the urge to create... that hasn't happened in a long, long time. started writing lyric snippets after last period class, was humming new melodies on my walk home... and then upon reaching home, i rediscovered the simple wonder of tabit. which is a hell of a lot easier to understand now that i'm actually learning guitar, so i can half figure out what i'm actually doing rather than just inputting random numbers to see what notes i get.

the creative burst dwindled a bit further on into the night, but still, i was up till about 1:30am plugging away at tabit. result: barebones makings of 3 new songs. damn.

it's kind of a relief to know that creative fount hasn't completely dried up yet. i think it's been a good... 3-4 years since i've written anything concrete (excluding the one corrupted gp4 file which i will never again have the chance to hear... i don't even remember how that song went, but i know i liked it... shame). kind of liberating, i have to say, but that also means my brain's a little distracted from daily duties (i made my classes play scrabble today. uh-huh. aren't i such a great teacher?). who cares man, it's nearly the end of the school year and these kids don't wanna do any real work anymore either. i think i'm entitled to a break too.

in other news, le-ciel's site is a bitch to access. until now i still haven't managed to get through to check my seats. I HATE YOU, SERVER ADMINS. why the fack can't they just email the results to us instead of making us all log in AT THE SAME FREAKIN TIME (cuz it's pretty freaking obvious that everyone will) thereby threatening to crash the server? just to reserve the seats in the first place i had to wait 2 days, and access the site at 4am in the morning on my keitai from a hotel room in beijing!!! do you have any clue how much that's gonna cost me on my next bill?! ara, hidoi~~~ wa...

i've also decided that japanese weddings are great. it's so much fun to get fancy presents when you're not even the one who's getting married. plus the food... oh hell i haven't had lobster like that for yeeeaaaaars... who cares that i got home at 2:30am on sunday night, slept at 3am, and still managed to get up in time to make it to work for a day of 4 reckless, useless classes? it was still worth it.

ps. shiina ringo's new album is audio sex. not audio sex on the hood of a car like sads, but like... audio sex lounging on a phatty grand piano. i really wanna watch sakuran now. especially, of course, since anna tsuchiya is just so unbelievably cool.

wow i must be hungry. i don't normally write this much in junk blogs i don't care about. =\

wheeeee. finally got the new keitai. sharp 810sh biatches!!!
https://mb.softbank.jp/mb/en/product/3g/810sh/index.html

i actually was tempted to get pink, but i knew i would get sick of it eventually so i went with basic white (which is classier than black, plus i can prissify it with decals etc. if i feel so inclined). plus pink would be harder to coordinate with the multitude of multi-coloured keitai charms i've collected.

oh course, guess whose mug is currently plastered all over my screen??? =) i already attached the beelzebub screen protector that came in the set with the keitai charm from marilyn live last weekend. i knew it was a sign. i knew it!

i also plugged my microsd (my god that thing is tiny, i'm freaked that i'm gonna lose it) chock full of fake?, oblivion dust, and hyde (plus salyu's beatles cover, just for variety). i'll prolly add more when i feel like it. weird that only aac files are compatible though... i may have become a mac ho now too (but i still refuse to use any software besides itunes).

oh i love living in japan.

i'm not really sure why i'm here, except that i've unexpectedly turned into a blog ho.

god help me.